Wednesday, October 12, 2005

The Back Seat

I wrote this some time ago but Steph's Strike Three brought it back to me. Some of you may have read it before but most have not so here goes.

The Back Seat

She was the child
who played in the woods,
who thought the world
was hers to grasp,
the child whose dreams were bigger than the sky,
whose playmates were wild;
fleet of foot, winged, and finned.

She was the child that had needs,
that had visions
of what she wanted to be,
but the child who was told
over and over
that she would amount to nothing at all,
that she was useless,
a dreamer,
a wastrel.

She was the child who was told
over and over
to be seen and not heard,
to silently listen to what others may say,
but not to butt in,
for her thoughts and her words
were worth nothing at all.

She was that child,
tho' now an old woman
whose dreams lost their way,
who knew that, no matter what,
she could never succeed.
She'd been told so, you see,
over and over.

She was that child,
tho' now an old woman
who wonders
where went the child
that rode life like a merry-go-round,
the child that wrapped her arms around Pegasus's neck?

She was that child,
now frail and in limbo,
remembering
in the clear view of hindsight--

Her friends were their friends,
never her own,
so she sits here alone
tied into her chair
silently listening,
withdrawn into self
and searching--
for what?
She was the woman
who, throughout the years,
sat in the back.
That was her burden, you see,
to live through the lives
of those who sat in the front,
for she was no more than a shadow
on the back stage of life,
for a shadow, you see,
is seen and not heard.

She is the old woman who mourns
for the years that have passed,
with hope too late to be hopeful.
For the road back is too far,
the journey too difficult,
the path --
over-grown and weedy.

She is the old woman,
tied into her chair,
trying to escape disillusion
while life rots around her
in the half dead and the dying,
while shadows pass by
ignoring the child that once was.

She is the child, now an old woman
tied into her chair,
who knows
that by taking the back seat,
she lost her most precious possession--

her life
and what could have been.


Vi
©July 18, 2005

I am not really tied to a chair, but I could have been had I not gained the freedom of cronedom.

Vi

4 Comments:

At 12:42 PM, Blogger Luna said...

Thank you Vi for your poem. The beginning feels like what was said to me. And even now I have to remember I have the strength to overcome those voices of old. It is never too late to gain your own voice.

 
At 3:07 PM, Blogger aletta said...

Wonderful poem. I too am enjoying cronedom, it has set so much of me free. Still awaiting invitations to this blog and some of the others (gypsy camp for instance - hint)

aletta

 
At 6:56 PM, Blogger Heather Blakey said...

She is the old woman who mourns
for the years that have passed,
with hope too late to be hopeful.
For the road back is too far,
the journey too difficult,
the path --
over-grown and weedy.

There are plenty of people here within this realm who will personally help clear over-grown, weedy paths that return to childhood. I for one have taken a scythe and the road is quite clear now.

 
At 4:51 AM, Blogger Imogen Crest said...

Yes the cycle must be completed by each one. Lovely words.

 

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